Day two - Resolutions

Today I spent time with my twin sister at her apartment. As my niece followed me from room to room, I couldn’t help but notice something. She was watching me, trying to do everything I was doing and showing me little crafts she’d made around the house. Whether I asked for it or not, whenever we spend time together, she’s looking to me to show her how to interact with the world. I asked myself ‘what kind of person will I be in 2020?’ and a few ideas came to mind.

I don’t make resolutions anymore

But I did choose a word to meditate on all year long; Believe. Back in October I set some broad goals and even made a vision board video for my business vlog. It’s going to take lots of work, consistency and patience with myself to achieve those goals. Not only that, I’ve got to believe that those things are possible for my own life. There have been plenty of times where I felt that I’d let my younger self down because I’m not doing the things I thought I would be by now. I started doubting my abilities, my self worth and whether I deserved to be seen as a professional. I battled anxiety and self doubt quite a lot in 2019. 

Two year old little girl reading a book in her bedroom.  She is wearing pink pajamas and sitting in a rocking chair.

BUT THAT WAS THEN, THIS IS NOW!

This year, I’m going to be someone who creates for the joy of the art form. As I track each day with images and video, I know I’m going to start loving this journey I’m taking as an international lifestyle photographer. I’ll be someone who thinks outside of my past efforts or failures and focuses on what could be. I’m going to make friends and connections that I never thought I could. I’m going to travel to places across the world and share experiences with beautiful people from all walks of life. I’m going to work hard and focus on the process instead of results. I’m going to believe in myself. I believe that others will see value in me. I believe that I’ll be hired for my unique ways of seeing the world. I believe that God’s going to guide me every single step of the way. 

What kind of person will you be in 2020?